Two years ago, after a very public scandal that involved her married director, Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson called time on their romance.

However, it seems that despite Rob moving on with fiancée FKA Twigs, Kristen is still feeling the heart ache.

She spoke candidly about their break-up with the Daily Beast and admitted that finding the inspiration for her character Nia in her latest project was like “Ugh, f*cking kill me.”

She called the process “incredibly painful” and while she admits it was a good time for her and co-star Nicholas Hoult (who previously dated Jennifer Lawrence) to make the film, it wasn’t without difficulty. The two star in Equals, a sci-fi drama in which human emotions , such as love and romance, have been erased. 

“Not all of my friends have been through what I’ve been through … Everything that we did was explorative, and a meditation on what we already knew.”

While the Kristen may have been feeling the repercussions of her cheating on Rob with her married director two years ago, she does feel somewhat optimistic about her future relationships:

“If {Nicholas and I] did our jobs right [with this movie], then it would be to remind you that you can definitely get back to that, and how hard, amazing, and life-fulfilling those feelings were in the very beginning.”

Of late Kristen is said to be dating her personal assistant Alicia Cargile. While rumours have been circulating about the star's sexuality and personal life for years now, she commented that the painful experience of this project was very challenging:

“At this stage of my life where I’m close to these awakening periods, and it’s a big deal for me, and to represent them so basically and so hard was intimidating as hell,”